The way...

I wanna find my way back to you. Unfortunately I don’t know what to do anymore. Every day I feel I lose you a little bit. If you get frustrate with me I just feel the same. We are not the same. I thought I was wrong complaining so much that we don’t talk, we don’t see other, I was pressuring so much for something that are not on our hands. I decided to change to stop to pressure, to ask and be mad because we don’t have the same schedule.

I keep my focus on our best memories, on our history, in our moments, when I was there, when you were here. I listen to your songs, to my songs. I stare at our pictures to keep alive in my memory all the details about you on my mind, our journey, and our places. Can you hear me crying? I wish you could understand me.

This distance is killing me. I don’t know what to say anymore, what to expect. I feel it is here inside my heart. I can’t take it off. I don’t know what to do with heart. I try to hide; don’t miss you; to keep myself really busy 24/7. It is really working, some days I feel that I will not have time to stop and breath.  You ask me how I am doing the things, I do right and at the same time I do wrong and show it for to see if you pay attention.

I just say so much. Sometimes I am stressed. I try to learn with the distance. To live with the distance. To get used to the distance. The distance between us. The distance between what I want. But what I want? I am lost… Maybe you can help me find my way. Our way. The way.